some randoms on my phone.

waiting for xuwen before going to zouk. i think that was nov 6 or something... very early in the month.


our brochures for the performance.




my new game and proof that it is exciting. see XT's happy face!



a really retarded cat.



and speaking of cats... cat's bday!


and one taken on joey's phone: a pic of my man.



yes, i'm not that tall really. i was standing on the kerb and him, on the road.

i refused to post up the other random. >.<

Labels: love, peektures

i suck at guitar hero. T____T

Labels: games, NDS

i bought guitar hero on ds for myself! XD

Labels: games, NDS

it came to me how far i had come in my career as a trainee teacher. 4 years in nie are almost over -- with a few more months to graduation, it came to me that my future now is one long road and i had no idea where it would lead and how it would run. in a way, the possibilities are endless, and the choices and options -- they do overwhelm.

as i looked back on how far i had come since i first had my drama lessons with charlene, i realised how much i had matured in terms of thoughts and ideas. as an actor, i had grown confident, and i had learnt. i had not master the art of theatre fully -- one can never; not with a life such as this. and i know, the seeds that charlene and dr. jane have sown in me will continue to grow, and maybe, one day bear the rich fruits of love and passion.

so now, the questions that plague me are endless. but one lingers -- "now what?". i couldn't bear to close this chapter of my life. but sometimes we have to be brutally honest and tell ourselves that we have come a long way and it was time to move on. grasping on straws and memories are only temporal because all things do fade away in the end. it is tough, but i must learn to let go.

yes, i cried. i cried tears in charlene's office when the fact hits me, and hard. i will never work with her. at least not like the way we had in the last 4 years. and i know, she has taught me all she could -- the rest is up to me. but acknowledging this truth isn't easy, but i have to move on because only then can i really mature and grow into a woman in my own rights.

i dedicate this entry to charlene. thank you for sharing these 4 years, and watching us find our way without cutting our wings.

because of you, we can now soar and fly, and chase the things that are most important to us. and i will never forget your wonderful teachings because you taught me the essence of being a teacher and what it means to truly educate and teach.

Labels: education

the little touches -- they mean much to me. :)

Labels: love

here's wishing ellen and alex a blissful and blessed marriage, filled with God's love.

and here i am, back from 3 days of absence.

during these 3 days, much has happened.

my nails got longer:


and i realised how scattered brain i could get. (yes, poor kaiqian had to drive around just to pick up my debris.)

on another note, i thank God for giving me another chance at love, for giving me the chance to find this wonderful young man. thank you cheong hui for coming into my life and letting me rediscover what i had ran away from for the last 3 years.

Labels: love

thanks to:

mom, dad, yijun, ming pin, alex, mandy and cheong hui for coming this evening.

it really meant a lot to me. :)

with less than 24 hours to my performance tomorrow and less than 4 days to ellen's wedding, i'm in a wreak.

i'm forgetting my lines at critical points and i need to relax.

on another note.

i have not prepared the game cards. i have not prepared the forfeit cards, and many many other small things. i have not packed my clothes for fri, sat and sun. i have not ironed my dresses. i have not figured out how to transport my mini top hat without crushing it. i have not figured out which cameras i want to bring and what shoes to take with me. i have not find time to go get my brows done. i have not make an appointment to do my nails (in fact i sort of chewed everything off and now need gel tip extensions). i have not got my hair sorted out (or buy the hair accessories i need). i have not been taking care of my blardy skin and right now look extremely terrible with pasty look, eye bags and dark rings. oh yea. my eyes feel like goldfish eyes right now, and i'm terribly exhausted.

so many have nots, and still counting. :X

so at the end of this rant, i will go downstairs to get my brows done. then shower and bed. so dun be surprised if you dun see me on msn today.

Labels: (屮ﾟДﾟ)屮, rants

i promise to stop biting my nails when i'm nervous.

and we know what is turning me into a wreak right now. :X

on another note, i think there are voices in the playhouse. i hear them everytime i'm alone there. i've decided to name the voices "ERIK", courtesy of the opera ghost in phantom of the opera. but charlene thinks something else is cooler. mandy suggested "SAMUEL" but we have yet to put it to a vote.

so.

for now, the voices will be known as "WINSTON" since jae didn't complain when i suggested it.

XD

3 more days to my performance on thurs.

i'm pretty excited to be honest. it will be my last performance at nie under a module. i really want to do well -- i've been working hard, trying not to mess up.

i'm beat from all the rehearsals and making of sets and dealing with the pub stuff and things. but it's worth it -- all these moments.

this will be the best performance ever!

at the moment, thurs performance sees some 27 guests out of 40 seats. fri is still pretty empty though ... so if you are eyeing seats, what are you waiting for? :)

and happy birthday, marcus! i'll see you next june. ^^

Labels: performance, theatre

second wave was supposed to be out on sat and i'm late.

argh.

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ok. poster out at 9:08pm. the mail went into my spam for gmail -- does that mean that others are getting them in the spam too? i hope not. if anyone is interested:

poster 1


poster 2


if you're interested to attend, please email me at jessamyn.tay@gmail.com or nie.drama@gmail.com. :)

anyway, on another note.

I WANT MORE LOLITA! can someone sponsor me please?! :X i can't believe how much WANTS i have la. it's so disgusting.

list of WANTS

lolita dresses from mary magdalene [[ link 1 ]] [[ link 2 ]]

sailor doll from beth as most of you would know from my last entry

a tennis racquet (i think this has been on my list since FOREVER!)

macbook

yes, i'm happy with all these. they are enough for me!~ :)

Labels: loli, lolita, peektures, publicity, rants, theatre, wants

a trip down to black alice always result in me getting something i want, and something absolutely "not on my list, but i get it anyway". i'm turning into one very impulsive shopper i swear, and thank goodness i still have enough savings to fund this rather expensive hobby although i think it's time i stop buying for the next 9283798798437197 months or at least, till next august.

anyway, yes. i got BOTH the sundress AND the minihat.

and then, out of the blue, i decided to get this:


if you ask me, i think this is rather good buy because something from baby fits me for once. plus, i was eyeing this several entries back [[ link ]]. (yes, i know some of you are probably rolling your eyes, going "that's a blardy excuse")

will take pics and post up one of these days.

i'm lazy, and right now i don't know if i should wear the sundress with minihat for ellen's wedding, or if i should go over the top with aatp. of course, elegance prevails, and i'm leaning more towards the sundress.