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Monday, January 31, 2005
Been spending a lot of time writing on other things lately - hence the no updates. BTW, this writing is entirely part-time and I don't get paid for it so don't bother asking me if you're looking for a job in writing.



It's this Harry Potter thing I'm writing, and doing close to 10 posts a day - it can be quite a nightmare if the other person who had posted was superb. I felt kind of stupid posting sometimes, because my language command isn't as good. One such person would be the muggle behind Zachary Wolfe. His words forced me to dig out my thickest and dust covered dictionary which I had discarded since Sec 1, almost 6 years ago?! His command of language was one of the best I'd seen so far, and he is a great writer, full of wit and humour. I'd never laugh so much while reading - particularly the one with Ambre inside: 'Brats-r-us'? I don't think anyone could come up with that... unless his nickname is 'Wolfie' :) But... the good thing about this - I'm forced to learn new words and pick up proper grammer and such. Not that bad after all. In fact, this is a perfect way to cultivate creative thinking and also master the command of English language.


-; little lotte } @ 1:49 PM
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Been spending a lot of time writing on other things lately - hence the no updates. BTW, this writing is entirely part-time and I don't get paid for it so don't bother asking me if you're looking for a job in writing.



It's this Harry Potter thing I'm writing, and doing close to 10 posts a day - it can be quite a nightmare if the other person who had posted was superb. I felt kind of stupid posting sometimes, because my language command isn't as good. One such person would be the muggle behind Zachary Wolfe. His words forced me to dig out my thickest and dust covered dictionary which I had discarded since Sec 1, almost 6 years ago?! His command of language was one of the best I'd seen so far, and he is a great writer, full of wit and humour. I'd never laugh so much while reading - particularly the one with Ambre inside: 'Brats-r-us'? I don't think anyone could come up with that... unless his nickname is 'Wolfie' :) But... the good thing about this - I'm forced to learn new words and pick up proper grammer and such. Not that bad after all. In fact, this is a perfect way to cultivate creative thinking and also master the command of English language.


-; little lotte } @ 1:49 PM
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Friday, January 28, 2005
Sweet Angel Of Mine



Sweet angel of mine

Came softly to me at night.

In my dreams I see his smile

That lights up my grey grey sky.



Sweet angel of mine

Tells me stories and makes me laugh.

Loving words and long letters

Bridge our worlds so far apart.



Sweet angel of mine,

Finally met and finally known,

Never a person so lovely and grown

And melt my cold heart with his tone.



Sweet angel of mine,

Where are you now?

You're still here in my thoughts;

Though I know you're long gone, far apart.


-; little lotte } @ 2:23 PM
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Sweet Angel Of Mine



Sweet angel of mine

Came softly to me at night.

In my dreams I see his smile

That lights up my grey grey sky.



Sweet angel of mine

Tells me stories and makes me laugh.

Loving words and long letters

Bridge our worlds so far apart.



Sweet angel of mine,

Finally met and finally known,

Never a person so lovely and grown

And melt my cold heart with his tone.



Sweet angel of mine,

Where are you now?

You're still here in my thoughts;

Though I know you're long gone, far apart.


-; little lotte } @ 2:23 PM
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Saturday, January 22, 2005
Went for Steamboat! Very nice! Mr Woolhead bought drinks! *coughsbeercoughs* Hee...



Anyway, this class outing is a very big improvement from the last one. The last one we had, only Karin, me and Piao turned up! For this one, we had Karin, Denise, Annie, Mel, Maybel and me... Not to mention, Mr Woolhead and his family.


-; little lotte } @ 1:05 AM
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Went for Steamboat! Very nice! Mr Woolhead bought drinks! *coughsbeercoughs* Hee...



Anyway, this class outing is a very big improvement from the last one. The last one we had, only Karin, me and Piao turned up! For this one, we had Karin, Denise, Annie, Mel, Maybel and me... Not to mention, Mr Woolhead and his family.


-; little lotte } @ 1:05 AM
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Friday, January 21, 2005
Class outing tonight. 6PM at Marina Bay - We're going to eat STEAMBOAT! *WHEEEE* I hope there is not much seafood, otherwise I couldn't eat much!



And I'm FINALLY APPROVED by the Ministry of Errors... I mean Education, *haha* which means I can TEACH! *phew*



Quidditch is killing me. I'm just parking at the board, watching and waiting for someone to move. Good thing Kap is out now, so we're at an advantage.


-; little lotte } @ 12:21 PM
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Class outing tonight. 6PM at Marina Bay - We're going to eat STEAMBOAT! *WHEEEE* I hope there is not much seafood, otherwise I couldn't eat much!



And I'm FINALLY APPROVED by the Ministry of Errors... I mean Education, *haha* which means I can TEACH! *phew*



Quidditch is killing me. I'm just parking at the board, watching and waiting for someone to move. Good thing Kap is out now, so we're at an advantage.


-; little lotte } @ 12:21 PM
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Thursday, January 20, 2005
Met Lex. Still as lame as ever.



And Lex, sorry if I didn't talk much yesterday. I really couldn't work my mouth. Besides, you're finally seeing me for who I am yesterday. Yes, we knew each other for 3 years now, but all along I was really pretending to be like those girls you hang around with.


-; little lotte } @ 12:15 PM
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Met Lex. Still as lame as ever.



And Lex, sorry if I didn't talk much yesterday. I really couldn't work my mouth. Besides, you're finally seeing me for who I am yesterday. Yes, we knew each other for 3 years now, but all along I was really pretending to be like those girls you hang around with.


-; little lotte } @ 12:15 PM
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Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Meeting Lex in school tomorrow. Kinda crap for me, since I've no business to be there... But seeing that I haven't really seen him in a while, I guess this will be a good time for us to catch up, and for me to settle what's in my mind...


-; little lotte } @ 10:22 PM
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Meeting Lex in school tomorrow. Kinda crap for me, since I've no business to be there... But seeing that I haven't really seen him in a while, I guess this will be a good time for us to catch up, and for me to settle what's in my mind...


-; little lotte } @ 10:22 PM
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I need help!



I need 5 - 6 Road Marshalls for PJC's Alumni Cyclethon and I need a backup MC in case Ling cannot make it. Interested people, please let me know!



I've also got 4 empty donations cards. Will someone help my the poor soul?


-; little lotte } @ 1:57 PM
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I need help!



I need 5 - 6 Road Marshalls for PJC's Alumni Cyclethon and I need a backup MC in case Ling cannot make it. Interested people, please let me know!



I've also got 4 empty donations cards. Will someone help my the poor soul?


-; little lotte } @ 1:57 PM
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Monday, January 17, 2005
Do you know what time is it? In another 62 hours or less, a new movie is coming out! *chants* Elektra, Elektra Elektra... *hee* Takers, anyone? As long as you ask, I'll watch. This is one movie I won't mind watching like a hundred times!


-; little lotte } @ 10:28 AM
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Do you know what time is it? In another 62 hours or less, a new movie is coming out! *chants* Elektra, Elektra Elektra... *hee* Takers, anyone? As long as you ask, I'll watch. This is one movie I won't mind watching like a hundred times!


-; little lotte } @ 10:28 AM
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Sunday, January 16, 2005
I just worked a random quote generator into my blog. *yipee!!* It will churn out random quotes from random people and you can see it the moment you enter me blog. (if you cannot see it now, just press F5 on your keyboard :p) Currently, my quotes are quite limited since I'm still scouting around. So, if anyone has funny quotes, please tag me. Don't forget to mention who said it ya? ;)



Anyway, here's one of the quotes: Audrey Lim's theory on osmosis and Sec 4/4 running.



"Short people run faster because they have more surface area for osmosis" - Audrey Lim, Temasek Sec (4/1, 2004)


-; little lotte } @ 8:52 PM
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I just worked a random quote generator into my blog. *yipee!!* It will churn out random quotes from random people and you can see it the moment you enter me blog. (if you cannot see it now, just press F5 on your keyboard :p) Currently, my quotes are quite limited since I'm still scouting around. So, if anyone has funny quotes, please tag me. Don't forget to mention who said it ya? ;)



Anyway, here's one of the quotes: Audrey Lim's theory on osmosis and Sec 4/4 running.



"Short people run faster because they have more surface area for osmosis" - Audrey Lim, Temasek Sec (4/1, 2004)


-; little lotte } @ 8:52 PM
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I hate you, bicycle thief.



You have no idea how much problems you gave my family by stealing our bicycle. I mean, how is my youngest brother going to school?! How is my other brother going to his tuition class?! How is my dad going to exercise?! How am I going to do my round island cycling?! And mind you, we're not the only ones using the bikes.



I hope it eats into your conscience, m' dear. I hope you know how is it like to lose something indispensable in your family. I hope you know that greed takes you nowhere, except into a vicious cycle.


-; little lotte } @ 1:38 PM
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I hate you, bicycle thief.



You have no idea how much problems you gave my family by stealing our bicycle. I mean, how is my youngest brother going to school?! How is my other brother going to his tuition class?! How is my dad going to exercise?! How am I going to do my round island cycling?! And mind you, we're not the only ones using the bikes.



I hope it eats into your conscience, m' dear. I hope you know how is it like to lose something indispensable in your family. I hope you know that greed takes you nowhere, except into a vicious cycle.


-; little lotte } @ 1:38 PM
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Saturday, January 15, 2005
I don't know if it's me or what, but the song is no longer playing!!! *argh!*



I think my new server hates me. So, there will be no music on my blog until I find a crack in my codes. *scowls*


-; little lotte } @ 1:53 PM
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I don't know if it's me or what, but the song is no longer playing!!! *argh!*



I think my new server hates me. So, there will be no music on my blog until I find a crack in my codes. *scowls*


-; little lotte } @ 1:53 PM
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Counting Crows not working. So it's back to Jamelia's Superstar :) *hee*



*yells* Alex! Start grooving! ^^


-; little lotte } @ 1:18 AM
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Counting Crows not working. So it's back to Jamelia's Superstar :) *hee*



*yells* Alex! Start grooving! ^^


-; little lotte } @ 1:18 AM
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Under Alex's request, my blog will play Counting Crows' Accidentally In Love until... ah... he gets bored of it. -_-'''


-; little lotte } @ 1:03 AM
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Under Alex's request, my blog will play Counting Crows' Accidentally In Love until... ah... he gets bored of it. -_-'''


-; little lotte } @ 1:03 AM
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Friday, January 14, 2005
[[ 12 Things in Life ]]



* Ambition Don't let the best you have done as far be the standard for the rest of your life.

* Achievement The great oak was once a little nut who held its ground.

* Discipline Never get so busy making a living that you forget to make a life.

* Success True success is overcoming the fear of being unsuccessful.

* Effort If you don't ask, you don't get.

* Contentment If we do what is necessary, all the odds are in our favour.

* Optimism Instead of crying over spilt milk, go milk another cow.

* Determination It does not matter how slowly you go, as long as you do not stop.

* Attitude Nothing is too small to know, and nothing is too big to attempt.

* Persistence It's often the last key in the bunch that opens the lock.

* Champion Millions saw the apple fall, but Newton asked why.

* Opportunity If opportunities doesn't knock, build a door.


-; little lotte } @ 11:45 AM
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[[ 12 Things in Life ]]



* Ambition Don't let the best you have done as far be the standard for the rest of your life.

* Achievement The great oak was once a little nut who held its ground.

* Discipline Never get so busy making a living that you forget to make a life.

* Success True success is overcoming the fear of being unsuccessful.

* Effort If you don't ask, you don't get.

* Contentment If we do what is necessary, all the odds are in our favour.

* Optimism Instead of crying over spilt milk, go milk another cow.

* Determination It does not matter how slowly you go, as long as you do not stop.

* Attitude Nothing is too small to know, and nothing is too big to attempt.

* Persistence It's often the last key in the bunch that opens the lock.

* Champion Millions saw the apple fall, but Newton asked why.

* Opportunity If opportunities doesn't knock, build a door.


-; little lotte } @ 11:45 AM
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Thursday, January 13, 2005
Definition of LIKE



* to enjoy or approve of something or someone

* to want something/ desire something



Definition of LOVE



* to have strong feelings of affection for someone and be romantically and sexually attracted to them

* or, to feel great affection and caring for someone

* strong feelings of attraction towards and affetion for another person



So are they the same thing? How would you respond if someone tells you he likes you?


-; little lotte } @ 8:52 PM
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Definition of LIKE



* to enjoy or approve of something or someone

* to want something/ desire something



Definition of LOVE



* to have strong feelings of affection for someone and be romantically and sexually attracted to them

* or, to feel great affection and caring for someone

* strong feelings of attraction towards and affetion for another person



So are they the same thing? How would you respond if someone tells you he likes you?


-; little lotte } @ 8:52 PM
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Wednesday, January 12, 2005
Went down to Bedok Green Sec just now. And now I can't teach, 'cause MOE is soooooo inefficient! Really, I think they ought to take a leaf off what they are teaching in schools you know... (ie, efficiency)



Oh well.



I can't brood over it, can I? I just have to be patient and wait. In the meantime, my mom will be making a weekly contribution of 10$ into my wallet, so I can live while I continue my mad search for jobs.



That reminds me, I forgot to take money from my mom for tomorrow's "date". Looks like I have to dip into my savings again, after I took 100$ out last week for a stupid pink dress and tribal design 4-in-1 top (tube, toga, spag strap and halter) which I'll wear like once. -_-'''


-; little lotte } @ 10:48 PM
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Went down to Bedok Green Sec just now. And now I can't teach, 'cause MOE is soooooo inefficient! Really, I think they ought to take a leaf off what they are teaching in schools you know... (ie, efficiency)



Oh well.



I can't brood over it, can I? I just have to be patient and wait. In the meantime, my mom will be making a weekly contribution of 10$ into my wallet, so I can live while I continue my mad search for jobs.



That reminds me, I forgot to take money from my mom for tomorrow's "date". Looks like I have to dip into my savings again, after I took 100$ out last week for a stupid pink dress and tribal design 4-in-1 top (tube, toga, spag strap and halter) which I'll wear like once. -_-'''


-; little lotte } @ 10:48 PM
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Will be meeting Mr. Calvin Ang regarding the teaching job later. I hope it goes well. It will be a dream come true for me, and I so want to teach!



I'm meetin John (med student) tomorrow evening. Means I must ask my mom for $$$ again. I don't know what I'm going to tell her this time - she freaked out when I went out with a guy the last time early in the morning.


-; little lotte } @ 10:57 AM
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Will be meeting Mr. Calvin Ang regarding the teaching job later. I hope it goes well. It will be a dream come true for me, and I so want to teach!



I'm meetin John (med student) tomorrow evening. Means I must ask my mom for $$$ again. I don't know what I'm going to tell her this time - she freaked out when I went out with a guy the last time early in the morning.


-; little lotte } @ 10:57 AM
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Tuesday, January 11, 2005
I'm nuts.



I keep changing my songs. Why? - nothing. I'm just plain B O R E D! So being the C R A Z Y little me, I went and digged out a song list (I had uploaded onto my web, just waiting for me to link) which will end up as my song sooner or later. No worries, I don't play heavy song :)



* Everytime (Britney Spears)

* Heaven (DJ Sammy) (Piano and techno version - they are both GOOD)

* Angels Brought Me Here

* Are You Happy Now? (Michelle Branch)

* Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning)

* Big Yellow Taxi (Counting Crows)

* Blurry (POD!!)

* Ghost of You and Me (BBMak)

* I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing (Steve Tyler is GOOD! Beats Bon Jovi in this song!)

* Don't Speak (No Doubt ^^)

* Down Boy (Love that 'Arabian' sounding beat by Holly Valance)

* Kiss from a Rose (Seal)

* Hey Mama (BEP - I can't get enough of them in Urbz: Sims in the City!)

* Hero (Spider-man soundtrack)

* Emotions (Destiny's Child)

* Everything I do, I do it for you (Bryan Adams)



Nice songs right? :) I wanted to put in Sarah Brightman's "Think of Me" but it's too soft. Her solo/ female version of "The Phantom of the Opera" has the right volume, but too rock-ish. Right now I'm trying my darnest best to find the following. If someone has them and can help me host, I'll be eternally grateful :p



* Frozen (Madonna)

* Eden (Sarah Brightman)

* Dust in the Wind (Andy Williams) *lol, I'm a sucker for oldies*

* I Wanna Be (Your Underwear) (Bryan Adams with 100 Freudian slips)

* Carrickfergus (Charlotte Church)

* May it Be (Enya)

* Can't Help Falling in Love (UB40) (You give me the F4 version from the Lilo and Stitch, you see what I do to you! GRRR!!!)

* The Special Two (Missy Higgins)

* Vincent (Josh Groban)

* Time to Say Goodbye (Sarah Brightman, Andrea Bocelli) (I want the italian version)

* The Prayer (Celine Dion, Andrea Bocelli... although Charlotte Church and Josh Groban's version is ok)

* Don't let the Sun go down on me (George Michael and Elton John)

* I will come to you (Hanson)

* Picture (Sheryl Crow and Kid Rock)

* Music of the Night (Michael Crawford) (I love it! The version by Sarah Brightman is great too, but too high and operatic for some people)

* Never Been Me (Charlene)

* On my Own (From Les Miserables)



*****



Was reading my all my entries in my blog after my A Levels. Realise I'm thinking and dreaming too much. Also getting very rubbishy and crappy and insany.



You know what that means? Must get a job quick before I end up with an empire of cloud castles.



Yup... My cloud empire is 3/4 finished. It should be up and running by end Feb, ie when we get back our results. BWAHAHAHA!!!



*****



Went down to PJC again. Somehow I just wound up there once or twice a week, nowadays. Haha... man, I just miss that place!



Went to find Mr. A. Why? - Because of Alex. Nope, not because he did something wrong. Yup, our dear and wonderful MAN (no more a BOY anymore!!! WAHAHAHA!!!) is going to be our featured alumni in an interview. Reason? - for being an accomplished young man in the army after leaving PJC. *coughsOCS (Singapore), RMA, SANDHURST(UK) plus 3 awards as an overseas cadet while therecoughs* (MEMO: He beats everyone hands down, so must be weary of his hands) *impressimpressimpress!!!* *salutesalutesalute!!!* See, it goes to show that PJ got creme d'la creme, like HCJC ok... haha...



Yup! I'm so proud of him, did I mention that? (Hmmm... come to think of it, got at least 100 +++ times! HAHA...)



And did I mention this too? - I'm really proud of my youngest brother too! ^^ He is playing soccer for Victoria's school team! BWAHAHAHAHA!!! *wonders if he is going to be a captain in making*



*****



I think I'm nuts. I just agreed to go out with the medical student from NUS!!! *coughs* the one I was complaining about in one of my posts. *coughs* *WAHAHAH!!!* And I have never met him before. Someone please knock my head, so I'll be more sensible.


-; little lotte } @ 10:42 PM
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I'm nuts.



I keep changing my songs. Why? - nothing. I'm just plain B O R E D! So being the C R A Z Y little me, I went and digged out a song list (I had uploaded onto my web, just waiting for me to link) which will end up as my song sooner or later. No worries, I don't play heavy song :)



* Everytime (Britney Spears)

* Heaven (DJ Sammy) (Piano and techno version - they are both GOOD)

* Angels Brought Me Here

* Are You Happy Now? (Michelle Branch)

* Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning)

* Big Yellow Taxi (Counting Crows)

* Blurry (POD!!)

* Ghost of You and Me (BBMak)

* I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing (Steve Tyler is GOOD! Beats Bon Jovi in this song!)

* Don't Speak (No Doubt ^^)

* Down Boy (Love that 'Arabian' sounding beat by Holly Valance)

* Kiss from a Rose (Seal)

* Hey Mama (BEP - I can't get enough of them in Urbz: Sims in the City!)

* Hero (Spider-man soundtrack)

* Emotions (Destiny's Child)

* Everything I do, I do it for you (Bryan Adams)



Nice songs right? :) I wanted to put in Sarah Brightman's "Think of Me" but it's too soft. Her solo/ female version of "The Phantom of the Opera" has the right volume, but too rock-ish. Right now I'm trying my darnest best to find the following. If someone has them and can help me host, I'll be eternally grateful :p



* Frozen (Madonna)

* Eden (Sarah Brightman)

* Dust in the Wind (Andy Williams) *lol, I'm a sucker for oldies*

* I Wanna Be (Your Underwear) (Bryan Adams with 100 Freudian slips)

* Carrickfergus (Charlotte Church)

* May it Be (Enya)

* Can't Help Falling in Love (UB40) (You give me the F4 version from the Lilo and Stitch, you see what I do to you! GRRR!!!)

* The Special Two (Missy Higgins)

* Vincent (Josh Groban)

* Time to Say Goodbye (Sarah Brightman, Andrea Bocelli) (I want the italian version)

* The Prayer (Celine Dion, Andrea Bocelli... although Charlotte Church and Josh Groban's version is ok)

* Don't let the Sun go down on me (George Michael and Elton John)

* I will come to you (Hanson)

* Picture (Sheryl Crow and Kid Rock)

* Music of the Night (Michael Crawford) (I love it! The version by Sarah Brightman is great too, but too high and operatic for some people)

* Never Been Me (Charlene)

* On my Own (From Les Miserables)



*****



Was reading my all my entries in my blog after my A Levels. Realise I'm thinking and dreaming too much. Also getting very rubbishy and crappy and insany.



You know what that means? Must get a job quick before I end up with an empire of cloud castles.



Yup... My cloud empire is 3/4 finished. It should be up and running by end Feb, ie when we get back our results. BWAHAHAHA!!!



*****



Went down to PJC again. Somehow I just wound up there once or twice a week, nowadays. Haha... man, I just miss that place!



Went to find Mr. A. Why? - Because of Alex. Nope, not because he did something wrong. Yup, our dear and wonderful MAN (no more a BOY anymore!!! WAHAHAHA!!!) is going to be our featured alumni in an interview. Reason? - for being an accomplished young man in the army after leaving PJC. *coughsOCS (Singapore), RMA, SANDHURST(UK) plus 3 awards as an overseas cadet while therecoughs* (MEMO: He beats everyone hands down, so must be weary of his hands) *impressimpressimpress!!!* *salutesalutesalute!!!* See, it goes to show that PJ got creme d'la creme, like HCJC ok... haha...



Yup! I'm so proud of him, did I mention that? (Hmmm... come to think of it, got at least 100 +++ times! HAHA...)



And did I mention this too? - I'm really proud of my youngest brother too! ^^ He is playing soccer for Victoria's school team! BWAHAHAHAHA!!! *wonders if he is going to be a captain in making*



*****



I think I'm nuts. I just agreed to go out with the medical student from NUS!!! *coughs* the one I was complaining about in one of my posts. *coughs* *WAHAHAH!!!* And I have never met him before. Someone please knock my head, so I'll be more sensible.


-; little lotte } @ 10:42 PM
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Sunday, January 9, 2005
Szeting is having fun at MJC. I'm glad to know that. We're just disappointed we couldn't get a video of Yee Chien dancing in TJC (she is an OGL... :p) If only we could get it - then it'll be up here, just for laughs. Yep, I'm evil. ^^



Anyway, I think my youngest brother has a gf. Why? For the following reasons:



School

He just started school in Victoria. So Szeting asked him how he finds Victoria. He was saying that DHS better, when last year he was calling DHS a t00t school with brass buttons and obiang uniform. At first we were like ok, until I found this girl's blog on the computer. She was from my brother's primary school (Temasek) and I noticed a very remarkable trend in my bro's hp when it comes to her name. :p (ok, I'm sneaky)



The thing with Necklace

When we were holidaying at Aussie, my brother suddenly wanted to buy a necklace "for a friend". The necklace he picked was unisex type la so at first we didn't suspect anything. Since the cart was selling 2 necklaces for 5$, my mom asked my brother to get one more for his best friend, which resulted in a nonchalant response (ie, "don't need and don't want. He won't like.") So who was the necklace for? I started pressing him, and that resulted in a very agitated outburst from him - "Why you ask so much?!"; "None of your business!" etc. When my dad asked if it was for a girl, he deftly turned red and changed the topic. *coughs*VERY BIG TELL-TALE SIGN*coughs*



Post-PSLE

He went out quite often. Under duress intergoration, which resulted in 2 very excited parents and some loud honkings (we were in the car on a busy road when this happened. My dad got so excited he just stopped the car in the middle of the road.) we learnt that he had been out with someone.



I'm just so plain evil. Man! My brother better not read this.


-; little lotte } @ 10:09 PM
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Szeting is having fun at MJC. I'm glad to know that. We're just disappointed we couldn't get a video of Yee Chien dancing in TJC (she is an OGL... :p) If only we could get it - then it'll be up here, just for laughs. Yep, I'm evil. ^^



Anyway, I think my youngest brother has a gf. Why? For the following reasons:



School

He just started school in Victoria. So Szeting asked him how he finds Victoria. He was saying that DHS better, when last year he was calling DHS a t00t school with brass buttons and obiang uniform. At first we were like ok, until I found this girl's blog on the computer. She was from my brother's primary school (Temasek) and I noticed a very remarkable trend in my bro's hp when it comes to her name. :p (ok, I'm sneaky)



The thing with Necklace

When we were holidaying at Aussie, my brother suddenly wanted to buy a necklace "for a friend". The necklace he picked was unisex type la so at first we didn't suspect anything. Since the cart was selling 2 necklaces for 5$, my mom asked my brother to get one more for his best friend, which resulted in a nonchalant response (ie, "don't need and don't want. He won't like.") So who was the necklace for? I started pressing him, and that resulted in a very agitated outburst from him - "Why you ask so much?!"; "None of your business!" etc. When my dad asked if it was for a girl, he deftly turned red and changed the topic. *coughs*VERY BIG TELL-TALE SIGN*coughs*



Post-PSLE

He went out quite often. Under duress intergoration, which resulted in 2 very excited parents and some loud honkings (we were in the car on a busy road when this happened. My dad got so excited he just stopped the car in the middle of the road.) we learnt that he had been out with someone.



I'm just so plain evil. Man! My brother better not read this.


-; little lotte } @ 10:09 PM
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Saturday, January 8, 2005
Went to Cherie's house today. I had a great time spending the afternoon with her. It had been a long time since I see her, so I guess this was really great. :)



*****



Anyway, last night, was chatting with Fergus and Joann online.



Told Joann about my thoughts about a certain someone and I've decided that while he is a total jerk, he is very much to be pitied. I hope he will be true to his current love and wish him all the best. Spoke to Joann about Andrew as well, and in my own words, "I finally felt free... I am no longer tied down by anything in my heart." And the feeling is great!



And with Fergus, we were coming up with good pranks to play on people. We even thought of a pranking company, where we get paid to play jokes on people. Sounds good and fun actually... though I'll really feel sorry for those people on our lists, cos we did come up with some pretty ingenious stuff. And here're 3 to boot!



* Sending 100 pizzas

I thought sending 100 at a shot is a good idea. Fergus think staggering is better, eg, 1 at one time... or 10 at one time... all the way to 100.



* Virus

We'll use computer chips to bait the viruses and catch them. We'll bake computer chips the same way as choc chips are made. :P (ok, we're lame. shoot us.)



* Chain Mail

Type a whole string of gibberish, copy and paste to hit the max about of space in an inbox. The downside? - with gmail's 1GB, our pc will crash first. Of course, if the pc manages to survive, the upload time will be very long. (think can wait till the cows come home!) A better idea would be the press the send button repeatedly, and risk hanging the whole pc (with ropes?) :P



Haha... Suggestions are very welcome! ^^


-; little lotte } @ 8:19 PM
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Went to Cherie's house today. I had a great time spending the afternoon with her. It had been a long time since I see her, so I guess this was really great. :)



*****



Anyway, last night, was chatting with Fergus and Joann online.



Told Joann about my thoughts about a certain someone and I've decided that while he is a total jerk, he is very much to be pitied. I hope he will be true to his current love and wish him all the best. Spoke to Joann about Andrew as well, and in my own words, "I finally felt free... I am no longer tied down by anything in my heart." And the feeling is great!



And with Fergus, we were coming up with good pranks to play on people. We even thought of a pranking company, where we get paid to play jokes on people. Sounds good and fun actually... though I'll really feel sorry for those people on our lists, cos we did come up with some pretty ingenious stuff. And here're 3 to boot!



* Sending 100 pizzas

I thought sending 100 at a shot is a good idea. Fergus think staggering is better, eg, 1 at one time... or 10 at one time... all the way to 100.



* Virus

We'll use computer chips to bait the viruses and catch them. We'll bake computer chips the same way as choc chips are made. :P (ok, we're lame. shoot us.)



* Chain Mail

Type a whole string of gibberish, copy and paste to hit the max about of space in an inbox. The downside? - with gmail's 1GB, our pc will crash first. Of course, if the pc manages to survive, the upload time will be very long. (think can wait till the cows come home!) A better idea would be the press the send button repeatedly, and risk hanging the whole pc (with ropes?) :P



Haha... Suggestions are very welcome! ^^


-; little lotte } @ 8:19 PM
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Friday, January 7, 2005
*points excitedly* Look! Look! *peers* Can you see? Yes? NO?!?! *ahem* Eh... You know what I'm talking about anot? *shakes head* NO?!! WAHHHHH!!!



SeeEEeeEEee!!! New blog layout!! Very nice and neat right?! *G* Let's all say "AWWWW!" together shall we?... C'mon, say... *listens* Eh.. you saying anot? Ok, on the count of 3, we all say "awwwww" together? OK? Good!



Ok, everyone...



1.....



2....



3...



"AWWWWWW!!!!"





*lol* Ok, I was kidding. :) But comments are welcome. Just look for the tagboard link and fire away! ^^



PS: When I have the time, I'll continue with my introduction posts. :)



[edit: Alex said I can have one whole post for him. Unfortunately, neither of us have any inspiration to write. According to him, "(he) haven't had a smack of inspiration for some time now". So I offer to smack him, and hope something comes out. :P]


-; little lotte } @ 5:27 PM
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*points excitedly* Look! Look! *peers* Can you see? Yes? NO?!?! *ahem* Eh... You know what I'm talking about anot? *shakes head* NO?!! WAHHHHH!!!



SeeEEeeEEee!!! New blog layout!! Very nice and neat right?! *G* Let's all say "AWWWW!" together shall we?... C'mon, say... *listens* Eh.. you saying anot? Ok, on the count of 3, we all say "awwwww" together? OK? Good!



Ok, everyone...



1.....



2....



3...



"AWWWWWW!!!!"





*lol* Ok, I was kidding. :) But comments are welcome. Just look for the tagboard link and fire away! ^^



PS: When I have the time, I'll continue with my introduction posts. :)



[edit: Alex said I can have one whole post for him. Unfortunately, neither of us have any inspiration to write. According to him, "(he) haven't had a smack of inspiration for some time now". So I offer to smack him, and hope something comes out. :P]


-; little lotte } @ 5:27 PM
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Andrew played a mean trick on me last night.. er this morning (it was after midnight). Forced me to admit that I still like/ love him. Then he kept fooling around with my feelings, bumping my heart on a leash. But at least it made me laugh. I feel a lot better getting off my chest although I'm like -_-''' now. (how to face him?!!!) *lol* But... Thanks anyway, Andrew. :)



******



Anyway, drum roll please! I'm going to introduce people today! *winks* Here are a few people ('02 and '01 batch people first!) who made a crashing impact in my life for the last few years!



Dongxu

He is from PJC's 2nd batch ie the batch before the '02 batch. How did I meet him? - through a game of chess which he wiped me clean off the board. (uncle, be nice to girl can anot?!) Haha... I didn't really talk to him while in school, but recently I met him and he tried to help me get a job. :)



Alex

When did I first see him? On stage, dancing! - 'cos he was one of our dance instructor for the mass dance during orientation with Justin and ah... 2 girls whom I'd forgotten. *hehe* He's this puny fellow, but very sweet, very funny and super sarcastic. His favourtie hobby is suaning me and trying to hit on girls. :p (ok, i made that up) Tried to teach me physics and math (and I still fail! No, not his fault. It's really me la) He became very close with me and Ling during the later part of my JC life.



Ling

From St Marg's! (read: polka-dottie school and very strong language power!) *hee!* It's very funny how we met. Why? 'cause we started screaming and yelling and jumping and hugging each other barely 5 mins we met. Haha... Reason? We were checking posting for JC on the same PC and we found out that we're going to the same school. Really love her a lot - She brings out the louder and more excitable side of me. ^^ Still remember she told Mr Yeo she wanted to teach Sexology in PJC. The best part? She didn't know what orgasm is. HAHA!!



Joann

She was in my OG. Our friendship grew and developed the most during the last 1 year plus. She's a wonderful friend - always listening to me yak non-stop and swoon about *coughssomeonecoughs*. Quiet and deep thinking - it makes everything she has to say even more meaningful and special. She's also very lame at times. I really enjoy spending time with her, and her companionship is one that I love and treasure the most.



BingXiu(BX)

It's a small world for me and him. Why? We are in the same lit group and the same tuition class and we didn't know for 6 whole months! He used to tell me and Ling that he wanted to be a general. But now... haha... complain about army all the time. The worse thing he did? - took us to the HOTEL section of YMCA(Metropolitan) and asked for a room. I was so horribly embarassed. He's a damn good talker and according to Mr. Kwok, talked non-stop for the whole trek to LTC. (Joann, is it true?!)



Jonathan

Another fellow who played chess with me and wiped me off the board too! He's also my "tutor" for math and physics. The cheekiest thing he ever said to me was while we were playing chess. He took the chess seed, which read "Cannon" in chi (pao4) and placed it in front of me, while saying, "i'd like to pao4 you!" I nearly died of embarassment.



Ah Yeo aka Mr Yeo

My lit teacher. Very lame and very funny. He's a great teacher cos he MADE and FORCE me to think instead of spoonfeed. That's why I love and hate his lessons. But it really allows me to explore the Gothic genre in greater depth which I guess is good for exams. He's like a big kid sometimes and he's one of the few teachers who actually didn't mind me chasing them for 3 whole blocks in school, screaming, "Mr Yeo! Mr Yeo!"



Mr Koh

He's a great teacher too and taught me that there was more to life than just studies. He's very friendly but has a nasty temper sometimes. He's probably the only teacher in school whose assignments, tutorial and work I bother to do and hand up. :p



Mr BK Tan

Why did he leave such an impression in me? - 'cos he was my math tutor for 3 whole years! HAHA! I was his worst student in 02S23/ S09. Never passed math, never understood lessons and contantly got a blank look on my face. He used to be such a meanie!!! But then... Haha... things changed. I proved to him I can be a good math student, without doing my work. Haha... And I made it a point not to turn up for any re-exam or re-test by aceing them the first time. When I saw him the other day, he was like, "hey! Come back more often! Miss you and your class a lot!" He was also telling me that he expected no lower than an A grade for A Lvl Math. Reason? My math grade always get A,C,A,C etc... for Prelim, I got a C. In other words, according to previous trends, I should be getting an A now. -_-'''


-; little lotte } @ 1:41 PM
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Andrew played a mean trick on me last night.. er this morning (it was after midnight). Forced me to admit that I still like/ love him. Then he kept fooling around with my feelings, bumping my heart on a leash. But at least it made me laugh. I feel a lot better getting off my chest although I'm like -_-''' now. (how to face him?!!!) *lol* But... Thanks anyway, Andrew. :)



******



Anyway, drum roll please! I'm going to introduce people today! *winks* Here are a few people ('02 and '01 batch people first!) who made a crashing impact in my life for the last few years!



Dongxu

He is from PJC's 2nd batch ie the batch before the '02 batch. How did I meet him? - through a game of chess which he wiped me clean off the board. (uncle, be nice to girl can anot?!) Haha... I didn't really talk to him while in school, but recently I met him and he tried to help me get a job. :)



Alex

When did I first see him? On stage, dancing! - 'cos he was one of our dance instructor for the mass dance during orientation with Justin and ah... 2 girls whom I'd forgotten. *hehe* He's this puny fellow, but very sweet, very funny and super sarcastic. His favourtie hobby is suaning me and trying to hit on girls. :p (ok, i made that up) Tried to teach me physics and math (and I still fail! No, not his fault. It's really me la) He became very close with me and Ling during the later part of my JC life.



Ling

From St Marg's! (read: polka-dottie school and very strong language power!) *hee!* It's very funny how we met. Why? 'cause we started screaming and yelling and jumping and hugging each other barely 5 mins we met. Haha... Reason? We were checking posting for JC on the same PC and we found out that we're going to the same school. Really love her a lot - She brings out the louder and more excitable side of me. ^^ Still remember she told Mr Yeo she wanted to teach Sexology in PJC. The best part? She didn't know what orgasm is. HAHA!!



Joann

She was in my OG. Our friendship grew and developed the most during the last 1 year plus. She's a wonderful friend - always listening to me yak non-stop and swoon about *coughssomeonecoughs*. Quiet and deep thinking - it makes everything she has to say even more meaningful and special. She's also very lame at times. I really enjoy spending time with her, and her companionship is one that I love and treasure the most.



BingXiu(BX)

It's a small world for me and him. Why? We are in the same lit group and the same tuition class and we didn't know for 6 whole months! He used to tell me and Ling that he wanted to be a general. But now... haha... complain about army all the time. The worse thing he did? - took us to the HOTEL section of YMCA(Metropolitan) and asked for a room. I was so horribly embarassed. He's a damn good talker and according to Mr. Kwok, talked non-stop for the whole trek to LTC. (Joann, is it true?!)



Jonathan

Another fellow who played chess with me and wiped me off the board too! He's also my "tutor" for math and physics. The cheekiest thing he ever said to me was while we were playing chess. He took the chess seed, which read "Cannon" in chi (pao4) and placed it in front of me, while saying, "i'd like to pao4 you!" I nearly died of embarassment.



Ah Yeo aka Mr Yeo

My lit teacher. Very lame and very funny. He's a great teacher cos he MADE and FORCE me to think instead of spoonfeed. That's why I love and hate his lessons. But it really allows me to explore the Gothic genre in greater depth which I guess is good for exams. He's like a big kid sometimes and he's one of the few teachers who actually didn't mind me chasing them for 3 whole blocks in school, screaming, "Mr Yeo! Mr Yeo!"



Mr Koh

He's a great teacher too and taught me that there was more to life than just studies. He's very friendly but has a nasty temper sometimes. He's probably the only teacher in school whose assignments, tutorial and work I bother to do and hand up. :p



Mr BK Tan

Why did he leave such an impression in me? - 'cos he was my math tutor for 3 whole years! HAHA! I was his worst student in 02S23/ S09. Never passed math, never understood lessons and contantly got a blank look on my face. He used to be such a meanie!!! But then... Haha... things changed. I proved to him I can be a good math student, without doing my work. Haha... And I made it a point not to turn up for any re-exam or re-test by aceing them the first time. When I saw him the other day, he was like, "hey! Come back more often! Miss you and your class a lot!" He was also telling me that he expected no lower than an A grade for A Lvl Math. Reason? My math grade always get A,C,A,C etc... for Prelim, I got a C. In other words, according to previous trends, I should be getting an A now. -_-'''


-; little lotte } @ 1:41 PM
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Thursday, January 6, 2005
All right. A lot of things had been happening these few days, since 3rd Jan. I'd wanted to post but honestly I just don't have the patience to sit through. But my frustration feels that it is breaking through soon, and if I don't let my feelings flow out, I'll really break down again.



3rd Jan

Exactly two months after my birthday. Time sure flies. It is also the start of a new school term - for my brothers and my younger cousins. I had no part in it, unfortunately, and I didn't do much that day. I was still humming and playing and chilling at home. I played a mad Qudditch game online, and flooded OOC which was -_-'''. Didn't sleep the whole night.



4th Jan

My eyes could barely open. I couldn't get my contact lens on for the 2nd day, the 1st day being Sunday.



Gene asked me to meet Grace with him. I went. What did we talk about? - I'm not too sure either. I think it was school, LTC, school, ourselves, school and teachers. Oh yeah, movies as well.



Izyan and Mos turned up, and I left with them for school. I miss school - did I mention that? Anyway, you must be wondering, what the hell am I back in school? Simple. Dr Boey K.C would be having a sharing session with the lit students. Can't miss that eh?



4th Jan was also a very miserable day for me. I argued with several people and friends over SMS'es the whole day. I don't know what came over me, honestly, considering that I usually don't like to start fights without a very good reason. And life at home was getting from bad to worse. I feel very stressed at home and I cried non-stop at night. I hate the sounds and noises I'm hearing; I feel very agitated when I hear them. Half the time I just want to scream, or yelled, just to drown everything out. It's getting unbearable. Felt extremely depressed and suicidal, and a very strong urge to really hurt myself badly. I was snatching at things on my table and took out my metal ruler. (no knife - it's in my drawer and locked) I would have scratched myself very badly if Alex didn't stop me (through MSN but I appreciate that).



Went to bed at 2AM with swollen eyes and hiccups.



5th Jan

My eyes were still swollen. I couldn't get my contacts on again or open my eyes properly.



I started helping with PJC's alumni. So I went back to school again. Saw Jonathan and a lot of old friends from '01 and '02 batch. God - it was so lovely to meet them all again. I missed them like nuts la. Saw Bel too - my precious friend. She was crazy and it really made me feel a lot better with her jokes.



I felt a lot better actually, but very detached from the world. I was still upset over the day before and a little depressed and suicidal. I'm trying to get over the hurt. So I took as much paperwork as I can. At least when I drowned in them, I'd come off with stiff fingers. Spoke to Jennifer on the phone too. I'd miss her a lot. We talked about 02S23/ S09. I kind of miss them actually.



But the sad thing? - I felt very distant from Joann. Maybe it's her uni exams. Good luck dear! I know you will do well.



6th Jan

I've given up trying to wear my contact lens. My eyes are still a little swollen but not as bad as yesterday.



I fought with my mom. I hate it - I don't know how it started but I guess I have a part to play too. I admit I hadn't really kept my word. I hadn't really cleared up the last of my mess in my bedroom. But it's not that I don't want to. I just have no idea how I'm going to pass the remaining things back to Ling. She's busy when I'm free, then how am I going to drop by her house to pass everything back to her?



I also think my laptop hates me. When I was almost through with the email list thing, it has to hang. I'm like *%^&@$%!!! Grrr... Guess I can only finish it later. My fingers are really damn tired now and my eyes hurt, cos I couldn't work out some of the hand-writting. *scowls*



I also need to apologise to Izyan. She wanted to crash my place but I said no. I wish she would read this, then she will know why. It's not that I don't want or whatever. I'm just in enough troubles and I really want time by myself. I can't smile and be happy, running around the whole day. Cos ultimately, I'll still have to face the problems and troubles in my screwed up life. And I won't enjoy myself (neither will you, dear Iz) because my mind will be weighed down, as the last few days show.


-; little lotte } @ 6:49 PM
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All right. A lot of things had been happening these few days, since 3rd Jan. I'd wanted to post but honestly I just don't have the patience to sit through. But my frustration feels that it is breaking through soon, and if I don't let my feelings flow out, I'll really break down again.



3rd Jan

Exactly two months after my birthday. Time sure flies. It is also the start of a new school term - for my brothers and my younger cousins. I had no part in it, unfortunately, and I didn't do much that day. I was still humming and playing and chilling at home. I played a mad Qudditch game online, and flooded OOC which was -_-'''. Didn't sleep the whole night.



4th Jan

My eyes could barely open. I couldn't get my contact lens on for the 2nd day, the 1st day being Sunday.



Gene asked me to meet Grace with him. I went. What did we talk about? - I'm not too sure either. I think it was school, LTC, school, ourselves, school and teachers. Oh yeah, movies as well.



Izyan and Mos turned up, and I left with them for school. I miss school - did I mention that? Anyway, you must be wondering, what the hell am I back in school? Simple. Dr Boey K.C would be having a sharing session with the lit students. Can't miss that eh?



4th Jan was also a very miserable day for me. I argued with several people and friends over SMS'es the whole day. I don't know what came over me, honestly, considering that I usually don't like to start fights without a very good reason. And life at home was getting from bad to worse. I feel very stressed at home and I cried non-stop at night. I hate the sounds and noises I'm hearing; I feel very agitated when I hear them. Half the time I just want to scream, or yelled, just to drown everything out. It's getting unbearable. Felt extremely depressed and suicidal, and a very strong urge to really hurt myself badly. I was snatching at things on my table and took out my metal ruler. (no knife - it's in my drawer and locked) I would have scratched myself very badly if Alex didn't stop me (through MSN but I appreciate that).



Went to bed at 2AM with swollen eyes and hiccups.



5th Jan

My eyes were still swollen. I couldn't get my contacts on again or open my eyes properly.



I started helping with PJC's alumni. So I went back to school again. Saw Jonathan and a lot of old friends from '01 and '02 batch. God - it was so lovely to meet them all again. I missed them like nuts la. Saw Bel too - my precious friend. She was crazy and it really made me feel a lot better with her jokes.



I felt a lot better actually, but very detached from the world. I was still upset over the day before and a little depressed and suicidal. I'm trying to get over the hurt. So I took as much paperwork as I can. At least when I drowned in them, I'd come off with stiff fingers. Spoke to Jennifer on the phone too. I'd miss her a lot. We talked about 02S23/ S09. I kind of miss them actually.



But the sad thing? - I felt very distant from Joann. Maybe it's her uni exams. Good luck dear! I know you will do well.



6th Jan

I've given up trying to wear my contact lens. My eyes are still a little swollen but not as bad as yesterday.



I fought with my mom. I hate it - I don't know how it started but I guess I have a part to play too. I admit I hadn't really kept my word. I hadn't really cleared up the last of my mess in my bedroom. But it's not that I don't want to. I just have no idea how I'm going to pass the remaining things back to Ling. She's busy when I'm free, then how am I going to drop by her house to pass everything back to her?



I also think my laptop hates me. When I was almost through with the email list thing, it has to hang. I'm like *%^&@$%!!! Grrr... Guess I can only finish it later. My fingers are really damn tired now and my eyes hurt, cos I couldn't work out some of the hand-writting. *scowls*



I also need to apologise to Izyan. She wanted to crash my place but I said no. I wish she would read this, then she will know why. It's not that I don't want or whatever. I'm just in enough troubles and I really want time by myself. I can't smile and be happy, running around the whole day. Cos ultimately, I'll still have to face the problems and troubles in my screwed up life. And I won't enjoy myself (neither will you, dear Iz) because my mind will be weighed down, as the last few days show.


-; little lotte } @ 6:49 PM
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Tuesday, January 4, 2005
Heaven in Hell: The Liberal Way



I don't mean to sound weak.

But I couldn't stop trembling.

I'm very stressed up now -

Mentally and spiritually.

I feel like a fist had tightened around me;

And I feel like I'm falling.



I did not have a Heaven.

Rather, I'd build a Heaven in Hell.

And now everything had fallen apart,

And I had seen right through it -

My Heaven was burnt down.



I couldn't stop my teardrops;

Neither the pain inside.

If this is to go on,

A Liberal way I shall seek

And I will destroy myself

In order to end this pain I felt.


-; little lotte } @ 11:47 PM
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Heaven in Hell: The Liberal Way



I don't mean to sound weak.

But I couldn't stop trembling.

I'm very stressed up now -

Mentally and spiritually.

I feel like a fist had tightened around me;

And I feel like I'm falling.



I did not have a Heaven.

Rather, I'd build a Heaven in Hell.

And now everything had fallen apart,

And I had seen right through it -

My Heaven was burnt down.



I couldn't stop my teardrops;

Neither the pain inside.

If this is to go on,

A Liberal way I shall seek

And I will destroy myself

In order to end this pain I felt.


-; little lotte } @ 11:47 PM
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Monday, January 3, 2005
Some guy is sexually harrassing me.



I'm like "GREAT! One more of those shit I'm calling the police". Currently, he's no. 1 on my block list for email and msn. Very soon, I'm going to have his call and sms blocked as well. That is if Singtel provides such a service.



Otherwise, I don't know what I'm going to do.



Maybe I can have someone else's no. passed to him. (Like the other guy stalker's no. Those two sexually deprived morons can have a great time by themselves.) Or if I have his address, I'll be nice and provide dinner by calling ordering 100 pies and have them sent over to his place. Annonymous of course.



That would be nice. (Yes. I'm evil this way. But only to clowns like this.)



I'm utterly pissed off and disgusted.



*****************



In the Shadows The Rasmus



No sleep, No sleep until I'm done with finding the answer

Won't stop, Won't stop before I find the cure for this cancer

Sometimes, I feel like going down, I'm so disconnected

Somehow, I know that I am haunted to be wanted



I've been watching, I've been waiting

In the shadows for my time

I've been searching, I've been living

For tomorrows all my life



They say, that I must learn to kill before I can feel safe

But I, I'd rather kill myself than turn into their slave

Sometimes, I feel that I should go and play with the thunder

Somehow, I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder



I've been watching, I've been waiting

In the shadows for my time

I've been searching, I've been living

For tomorrows all my life



Lately, I've been walking, walking in circles

Watching, waiting for something

Feel me, touch me, heal me

Come take me higher



I've been watching, I've been waiting

In the shadows for my time

I've been searching, I've been living

For tomorrows all my life



I've been watching, I've been waiting,

I've been searching, I've been living,

for tomorrows...



In the shadows...

In the shadows...

I've been waiting...


-; little lotte } @ 9:21 PM
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Some guy is sexually harrassing me.



I'm like "GREAT! One more of those shit I'm calling the police". Currently, he's no. 1 on my block list for email and msn. Very soon, I'm going to have his call and sms blocked as well. That is if Singtel provides such a service.



Otherwise, I don't know what I'm going to do.



Maybe I can have someone else's no. passed to him. (Like the other guy stalker's no. Those two sexually deprived morons can have a great time by themselves.) Or if I have his address, I'll be nice and provide dinner by calling ordering 100 pies and have them sent over to his place. Annonymous of course.



That would be nice. (Yes. I'm evil this way. But only to clowns like this.)



I'm utterly pissed off and disgusted.



*****************



In the Shadows The Rasmus



No sleep, No sleep until I'm done with finding the answer

Won't stop, Won't stop before I find the cure for this cancer

Sometimes, I feel like going down, I'm so disconnected

Somehow, I know that I am haunted to be wanted



I've been watching, I've been waiting

In the shadows for my time

I've been searching, I've been living

For tomorrows all my life



They say, that I must learn to kill before I can feel safe

But I, I'd rather kill myself than turn into their slave

Sometimes, I feel that I should go and play with the thunder

Somehow, I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder



I've been watching, I've been waiting

In the shadows for my time

I've been searching, I've been living

For tomorrows all my life



Lately, I've been walking, walking in circles

Watching, waiting for something

Feel me, touch me, heal me

Come take me higher



I've been watching, I've been waiting

In the shadows for my time

I've been searching, I've been living

For tomorrows all my life



I've been watching, I've been waiting,

I've been searching, I've been living,

for tomorrows...



In the shadows...

In the shadows...

I've been waiting...


-; little lotte } @ 9:21 PM
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Saturday, January 1, 2005
::New Year's Resolution::



* Put the past behind me

* Cut down on my phone talk time. (I just busted it a lot again!)

* Open up more to people/ Be less cold


-; little lotte } @ 1:44 AM
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the superficial world.

::New Year's Resolution::



* Put the past behind me

* Cut down on my phone talk time. (I just busted it a lot again!)

* Open up more to people/ Be less cold


-; little lotte } @ 1:44 AM
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the superficial world.

I want to go London to watch "The Phantom of the Opera" (Musical) again. When I watched it a few years ago, I was touched by the songs, and was moved to tears. (Yes, I cried like mad during the musical!)



Today, I went with Joann to watch the movie. As I listened to the songs, I remembered the magical night, and I remembered the feelings. When the movie ended, I felt a surge of rising emotions. But I didn't cry - maybe cause the feeling of the musical and movie was different.



I love the show. Please, let it come to Singapore soon. Or I will pack my things and go London just to watch it again.


-; little lotte } @ 1:34 AM
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the superficial world.

I want to go London to watch "The Phantom of the Opera" (Musical) again. When I watched it a few years ago, I was touched by the songs, and was moved to tears. (Yes, I cried like mad during the musical!)



Today, I went with Joann to watch the movie. As I listened to the songs, I remembered the magical night, and I remembered the feelings. When the movie ended, I felt a surge of rising emotions. But I didn't cry - maybe cause the feeling of the musical and movie was different.



I love the show. Please, let it come to Singapore soon. Or I will pack my things and go London just to watch it again.


-; little lotte } @ 1:34 AM
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