below is an acc. of an incident at kino a few afternoons ago. jus hav a gd larf.
setting: kinokuniya bookshop, takashimaya
date: early this wk
time: afternoon, after sch
ME: sorry, do you have an extra copy for this book (BKC)? i'd like to have another one.
CASHIER: sure. give me a minute. *returns shortly with another copy* this is the last copy. we do not carry anymore other than these 2.
ME: ok. i'll take these 2 bks. *was stopped by a young man (YM)*
YM: excuse me, do u need to hav that 2 bks?
ME: yes. i'm doing them for a lvls.
YM: i see. but can i hav one of them - you don't need 2, do you?
ME: unfortunately, yes. i need 2.
YM: but u could share one couldn't u?
ME: i'm afraid not although i hav another copy at home, actually.
YM: i tink u r being too much here, hogging these if u hav one at home.
ME: but i need it.
YM: i need it as well.
ME: don't look that way to me. besides my exams is next wk.
YM: you cant be carrying all 3 bks in.
ME: this is getting ridiculous.
YM: well, u started it.
ME: look, if u hav nothing better to do, pls leave me alone.
YM: u can pass one to me and i'll leave u alone.
ME: look, it's none of ur business y i'm taking 2 copies when i hav a 3rd one at home as well, ok?
YM: i tink u r being v selfish.
ME: if i m, i wun be purchasing these for my frens.
*slight pause*
YM: oh.
below is an acc. of an incident at kino a few afternoons ago. jus hav a gd larf.
setting: kinokuniya bookshop, takashimaya
date: early this wk
time: afternoon, after sch
ME: sorry, do you have an extra copy for this book (BKC)? i'd like to have another one.
CASHIER: sure. give me a minute. *returns shortly with another copy* this is the last copy. we do not carry anymore other than these 2.
ME: ok. i'll take these 2 bks. *was stopped by a young man (YM)*
YM: excuse me, do u need to hav that 2 bks?
ME: yes. i'm doing them for a lvls.
YM: i see. but can i hav one of them - you don't need 2, do you?
ME: unfortunately, yes. i need 2.
YM: but u could share one couldn't u?
ME: i'm afraid not although i hav another copy at home, actually.
YM: i tink u r being too much here, hogging these if u hav one at home.
ME: but i need it.
YM: i need it as well.
ME: don't look that way to me. besides my exams is next wk.
YM: you cant be carrying all 3 bks in.
ME: this is getting ridiculous.
YM: well, u started it.
ME: look, if u hav nothing better to do, pls leave me alone.
YM: u can pass one to me and i'll leave u alone.
ME: look, it's none of ur business y i'm taking 2 copies when i hav a 3rd one at home as well, ok?
YM: i tink u r being v selfish.
ME: if i m, i wun be purchasing these for my frens.
*slight pause*
YM: oh.
-; little lotte } @ 2:07 PM
the superficial world.
below is an acc. of an incident at kino a few afternoons ago. jus hav a gd larf.
setting: kinokuniya bookshop, takashimaya
date: early this wk
time: afternoon, after sch
ME: sorry, do you have an extra copy for this book (BKC)? i'd like to have another one.
CASHIER: sure. give me a minute. *returns shortly with another copy* this is the last copy. we do not carry anymore other than these 2.
ME: ok. i'll take these 2 bks. *was stopped by a young man (YM)*
YM: excuse me, do u need to hav that 2 bks?
ME: yes. i'm doing them for a lvls.
YM: i see. but can i hav one of them - you don't need 2, do you?
ME: unfortunately, yes. i need 2.
YM: but u could share one couldn't u?
ME: i'm afraid not although i hav another copy at home, actually.
YM: i tink u r being too much here, hogging these if u hav one at home.
ME: but i need it.
YM: i need it as well.
ME: don't look that way to me. besides my exams is next wk.
YM: you cant be carrying all 3 bks in.
ME: this is getting ridiculous.
YM: well, u started it.
ME: look, if u hav nothing better to do, pls leave me alone.
YM: u can pass one to me and i'll leave u alone.
ME: look, it's none of ur business y i'm taking 2 copies when i hav a 3rd one at home as well, ok?
YM: i tink u r being v selfish.
ME: if i m, i wun be purchasing these for my frens.
*slight pause*
YM: oh.
-; little lotte } @ 2:07 PM
the superficial world.
Sunday, June 20, 2004
i'm typing this in a hurry - cos i'm supposed to be studying but then i really really need a break. i still have a lot of revision to complete - a lot of time wasted bcos of stupid reasons. mayb u'll find it too incredible, but here goes:
1)my grandma fell sick
2)then, my youngest bro fell sick
3)then, he passed the virus to my sec. bro and me
4)so i fell sick and was in bed for 2 days
5)wkends, no work - went out with parents and family
6)past 2 wks - cannot study in the morning cos my baby cousins keep disturbing me
7)add the stupid chihuahua in as well to pt 6
8)at home - day dream too much
9)in sch - tok too much
10)at mom's place - eat too much
sigh - i'm sooooooooooo ready to screw up this exams man! help!
but the plus side of these hols? - i got to rest and sleep well. not to mention, locate my long lost buddies and frens... that's jus so nice!
-; little lotte } @ 1:11 PM
the superficial world.
i'm typing this in a hurry - cos i'm supposed to be studying but then i really really need a break. i still have a lot of revision to complete - a lot of time wasted bcos of stupid reasons. mayb u'll find it too incredible, but here goes:
1)my grandma fell sick
2)then, my youngest bro fell sick
3)then, he passed the virus to my sec. bro and me
4)so i fell sick and was in bed for 2 days
5)wkends, no work - went out with parents and family
6)past 2 wks - cannot study in the morning cos my baby cousins keep disturbing me
7)add the stupid chihuahua in as well to pt 6
8)at home - day dream too much
9)in sch - tok too much
10)at mom's place - eat too much
sigh - i'm sooooooooooo ready to screw up this exams man! help!
but the plus side of these hols? - i got to rest and sleep well. not to mention, locate my long lost buddies and frens... that's jus so nice!
-; little lotte } @ 1:11 PM
the superficial world.
i'm typing this in a hurry - cos i'm supposed to be studying but then i really really need a break. i still have a lot of revision to complete - a lot of time wasted bcos of stupid reasons. mayb u'll find it too incredible, but here goes:
1)my grandma fell sick
2)then, my youngest bro fell sick
3)then, he passed the virus to my sec. bro and me
4)so i fell sick and was in bed for 2 days
5)wkends, no work - went out with parents and family
6)past 2 wks - cannot study in the morning cos my baby cousins keep disturbing me
7)add the stupid chihuahua in as well to pt 6
8)at home - day dream too much
9)in sch - tok too much
10)at mom's place - eat too much
sigh - i'm sooooooooooo ready to screw up this exams man! help!
but the plus side of these hols? - i got to rest and sleep well. not to mention, locate my long lost buddies and frens... that's jus so nice!
-; little lotte } @ 1:11 PM
the superficial world.
Friday, June 18, 2004
got home at 11 plus last night. went with the sch choir to watch the SAF choral facets. it was fantastic - better than i expected!... the main vocalists came to our sch to perform a few wks back - before the sch close for some promotion thing. i heard them and had wanted to go but i havent any money at that time. luckily Dee came in and offer me a ticket. that's really sweet of her :).
i must say, i was pleasantly surprised. one of the main vocalists that performed last night - and who was at PJ during the promo thingy - happened to be a familiar figure. he is Aaron Goh and i remembered him from his days in FMSS and later in ACJC. i remembered him as the tall and gentlemanly looking man who played Atticus Finch from To Kill a Mockingbird (TKMB). i can still remember that magical night when he brought Atticus alive thru his acting. he really wowed me and my classmates. and i actually developed a crush on him for a day or two. it wasn't surprising, since he was rather charismatic and charming. that was when i was in sec 3. he was, i believe, in sec 4 then.
the following yr saw another production of TKMB. this time it was by ACJC. he didn't perform - i supposed it was bcos he was new in the sch. but i saw him in the audiences :). and now, 3 yrs later, i saw him again. *smiles wistfully* he has broaden out in some ways - no longer as slim as he used to be - a little more muscular from his army days. i was smittened by his performance last night. not bcos i used to hav this crush on him, but bcos of his fantastic performance. he sang well and he could hit a lot of notes i couldn't. his vocal range is so diverse and vast that everyone there was impressed, not just me.
but that aside, i cant help but felt this sense of deja vu and nostalgia when i was at the performance(music and ppl). music aside, the ppl there is full of familarity. btw, i'm talking abt the performers and not the audience. i dunno why but i find a few of them strangely familiar. partly bcos i'd seen them in my sch - but partly bcos of something else. it's as if i'd seen them before. mayb i did when i was broswing thru the ns pics of my cousin but then again, they weren't the same batch.
watever it is, i tink our SAF choral and vocalists are gd and i'm going for the next one - if they ever hav more of these!
-; little lotte } @ 8:48 PM
the superficial world.
got home at 11 plus last night. went with the sch choir to watch the SAF choral facets. it was fantastic - better than i expected!... the main vocalists came to our sch to perform a few wks back - before the sch close for some promotion thing. i heard them and had wanted to go but i havent any money at that time. luckily Dee came in and offer me a ticket. that's really sweet of her :).
i must say, i was pleasantly surprised. one of the main vocalists that performed last night - and who was at PJ during the promo thingy - happened to be a familiar figure. he is Aaron Goh and i remembered him from his days in FMSS and later in ACJC. i remembered him as the tall and gentlemanly looking man who played Atticus Finch from To Kill a Mockingbird (TKMB). i can still remember that magical night when he brought Atticus alive thru his acting. he really wowed me and my classmates. and i actually developed a crush on him for a day or two. it wasn't surprising, since he was rather charismatic and charming. that was when i was in sec 3. he was, i believe, in sec 4 then.
the following yr saw another production of TKMB. this time it was by ACJC. he didn't perform - i supposed it was bcos he was new in the sch. but i saw him in the audiences :). and now, 3 yrs later, i saw him again. *smiles wistfully* he has broaden out in some ways - no longer as slim as he used to be - a little more muscular from his army days. i was smittened by his performance last night. not bcos i used to hav this crush on him, but bcos of his fantastic performance. he sang well and he could hit a lot of notes i couldn't. his vocal range is so diverse and vast that everyone there was impressed, not just me.
but that aside, i cant help but felt this sense of deja vu and nostalgia when i was at the performance(music and ppl). music aside, the ppl there is full of familarity. btw, i'm talking abt the performers and not the audience. i dunno why but i find a few of them strangely familiar. partly bcos i'd seen them in my sch - but partly bcos of something else. it's as if i'd seen them before. mayb i did when i was broswing thru the ns pics of my cousin but then again, they weren't the same batch.
watever it is, i tink our SAF choral and vocalists are gd and i'm going for the next one - if they ever hav more of these!
-; little lotte } @ 8:48 PM
the superficial world.
got home at 11 plus last night. went with the sch choir to watch the SAF choral facets. it was fantastic - better than i expected!... the main vocalists came to our sch to perform a few wks back - before the sch close for some promotion thing. i heard them and had wanted to go but i havent any money at that time. luckily Dee came in and offer me a ticket. that's really sweet of her :).
i must say, i was pleasantly surprised. one of the main vocalists that performed last night - and who was at PJ during the promo thingy - happened to be a familiar figure. he is Aaron Goh and i remembered him from his days in FMSS and later in ACJC. i remembered him as the tall and gentlemanly looking man who played Atticus Finch from To Kill a Mockingbird (TKMB). i can still remember that magical night when he brought Atticus alive thru his acting. he really wowed me and my classmates. and i actually developed a crush on him for a day or two. it wasn't surprising, since he was rather charismatic and charming. that was when i was in sec 3. he was, i believe, in sec 4 then.
the following yr saw another production of TKMB. this time it was by ACJC. he didn't perform - i supposed it was bcos he was new in the sch. but i saw him in the audiences :). and now, 3 yrs later, i saw him again. *smiles wistfully* he has broaden out in some ways - no longer as slim as he used to be - a little more muscular from his army days. i was smittened by his performance last night. not bcos i used to hav this crush on him, but bcos of his fantastic performance. he sang well and he could hit a lot of notes i couldn't. his vocal range is so diverse and vast that everyone there was impressed, not just me.
but that aside, i cant help but felt this sense of deja vu and nostalgia when i was at the performance(music and ppl). music aside, the ppl there is full of familarity. btw, i'm talking abt the performers and not the audience. i dunno why but i find a few of them strangely familiar. partly bcos i'd seen them in my sch - but partly bcos of something else. it's as if i'd seen them before. mayb i did when i was broswing thru the ns pics of my cousin but then again, they weren't the same batch.
watever it is, i tink our SAF choral and vocalists are gd and i'm going for the next one - if they ever hav more of these!
-; little lotte } @ 8:48 PM
the superficial world.
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
am down with a very bad throat infection and flu. luckily, i haven't a fever or cough... but my whole body is aching all over... :( i hope to get well by tml, cos there this acapella performance by the SAF at the s'pore conference hall and i dun wan to miss it. *grins* they sounded really gd. unfortunately, i'm not sure where's that place and i'm not sure if i'll be fit to leave my place tml. hopefully, everything will clear up. in the meantime, i'll hav to juggle btw rest and study. but i tink i'm sleeping more than anything else. *grins* hah!
-; little lotte } @ 2:09 PM
the superficial world.
am down with a very bad throat infection and flu. luckily, i haven't a fever or cough... but my whole body is aching all over... :( i hope to get well by tml, cos there this acapella performance by the SAF at the s'pore conference hall and i dun wan to miss it. *grins* they sounded really gd. unfortunately, i'm not sure where's that place and i'm not sure if i'll be fit to leave my place tml. hopefully, everything will clear up. in the meantime, i'll hav to juggle btw rest and study. but i tink i'm sleeping more than anything else. *grins* hah!
-; little lotte } @ 2:09 PM
the superficial world.
am down with a very bad throat infection and flu. luckily, i haven't a fever or cough... but my whole body is aching all over... :( i hope to get well by tml, cos there this acapella performance by the SAF at the s'pore conference hall and i dun wan to miss it. *grins* they sounded really gd. unfortunately, i'm not sure where's that place and i'm not sure if i'll be fit to leave my place tml. hopefully, everything will clear up. in the meantime, i'll hav to juggle btw rest and study. but i tink i'm sleeping more than anything else. *grins* hah!
-; little lotte } @ 2:09 PM
the superficial world.
Saturday, June 12, 2004
Wkend once more - second wk is ending soon. and then i'm two wks closer to my mid-yr exams which i'll definitely screw up.
i'm frightened. really frightened. i dun tink i'm up to meet these demons myself (demons - aka a lvl)... mayb i was being stupid when i thot i could get thru a lvl when the truth is i can't.
-; little lotte } @ 12:06 PM
the superficial world.
Wkend once more - second wk is ending soon. and then i'm two wks closer to my mid-yr exams which i'll definitely screw up.
i'm frightened. really frightened. i dun tink i'm up to meet these demons myself (demons - aka a lvl)... mayb i was being stupid when i thot i could get thru a lvl when the truth is i can't.
-; little lotte } @ 12:06 PM
the superficial world.
Wkend once more - second wk is ending soon. and then i'm two wks closer to my mid-yr exams which i'll definitely screw up.
i'm frightened. really frightened. i dun tink i'm up to meet these demons myself (demons - aka a lvl)... mayb i was being stupid when i thot i could get thru a lvl when the truth is i can't.
-; little lotte } @ 12:06 PM
the superficial world.
Wednesday, June 9, 2004
taking a break from my books now. really tired now... been looking at econs notes since morning, not to mention a whole hour plus of gothic lit... my head is swimming with info now n i hope i can retain these stuff in my head.
ling just smsed me abt malvin. that guy called her apparently. which is weird in my opinion cos we haven heard from him for like so long. he contacted me twice so far after our huge argument over nothing really. once on new year's day - he sounded drunk and funny over the phone and hanged up within a couple of mins. the second time was to say hi. when i replied his sms, i didn't hear from him again. weird fella - wonder what he's up to. i spoke to rebecca abt him and she was a little worried abt him as well. after all, he had been a really sweet but lonely person when he was still in sch. in a way, i still remember his sweetness and not the argument.
never mind. wadever. later
pS: i'm so out of cash this wk. wonder how i'm going to go out... sigh
-; little lotte } @ 4:28 PM
the superficial world.
taking a break from my books now. really tired now... been looking at econs notes since morning, not to mention a whole hour plus of gothic lit... my head is swimming with info now n i hope i can retain these stuff in my head.
ling just smsed me abt malvin. that guy called her apparently. which is weird in my opinion cos we haven heard from him for like so long. he contacted me twice so far after our huge argument over nothing really. once on new year's day - he sounded drunk and funny over the phone and hanged up within a couple of mins. the second time was to say hi. when i replied his sms, i didn't hear from him again. weird fella - wonder what he's up to. i spoke to rebecca abt him and she was a little worried abt him as well. after all, he had been a really sweet but lonely person when he was still in sch. in a way, i still remember his sweetness and not the argument.
never mind. wadever. later
pS: i'm so out of cash this wk. wonder how i'm going to go out... sigh
-; little lotte } @ 4:28 PM
the superficial world.
taking a break from my books now. really tired now... been looking at econs notes since morning, not to mention a whole hour plus of gothic lit... my head is swimming with info now n i hope i can retain these stuff in my head.
ling just smsed me abt malvin. that guy called her apparently. which is weird in my opinion cos we haven heard from him for like so long. he contacted me twice so far after our huge argument over nothing really. once on new year's day - he sounded drunk and funny over the phone and hanged up within a couple of mins. the second time was to say hi. when i replied his sms, i didn't hear from him again. weird fella - wonder what he's up to. i spoke to rebecca abt him and she was a little worried abt him as well. after all, he had been a really sweet but lonely person when he was still in sch. in a way, i still remember his sweetness and not the argument.
never mind. wadever. later
pS: i'm so out of cash this wk. wonder how i'm going to go out... sigh
-; little lotte } @ 4:28 PM
the superficial world.
it's way past midnight as i'm typing this so i supposed i'll be hitting me bed soon once i'm done. i jus re-work my blog layout. looks a lot nicer and it's a lot less hassle for me when it comes to stuff. well, at least in my opinion i've got less scrolling to look for something.
i dunno how the others will tink but drop me a line on my board k? :) if this doesn't work that well, i'll find something else. in the meantime, this one's gd enuff for me :) *grins*
the only thing that is really egging me is the time stamp. it jus wun come out. mayb i jus stink at all these stuff... :( *grumbles*
anyway, it's lights out for me now.
-; little lotte } @ 12:30 AM
the superficial world.
it's way past midnight as i'm typing this so i supposed i'll be hitting me bed soon once i'm done. i jus re-work my blog layout. looks a lot nicer and it's a lot less hassle for me when it comes to stuff. well, at least in my opinion i've got less scrolling to look for something.
i dunno how the others will tink but drop me a line on my board k? :) if this doesn't work that well, i'll find something else. in the meantime, this one's gd enuff for me :) *grins*
the only thing that is really egging me is the time stamp. it jus wun come out. mayb i jus stink at all these stuff... :( *grumbles*
anyway, it's lights out for me now.
-; little lotte } @ 12:30 AM
the superficial world.
it's way past midnight as i'm typing this so i supposed i'll be hitting me bed soon once i'm done. i jus re-work my blog layout. looks a lot nicer and it's a lot less hassle for me when it comes to stuff. well, at least in my opinion i've got less scrolling to look for something.
i dunno how the others will tink but drop me a line on my board k? :) if this doesn't work that well, i'll find something else. in the meantime, this one's gd enuff for me :) *grins*
the only thing that is really egging me is the time stamp. it jus wun come out. mayb i jus stink at all these stuff... :( *grumbles*
anyway, it's lights out for me now.
-; little lotte } @ 12:30 AM
the superficial world.
Tuesday, June 8, 2004
jus got home from bugis. got some sweets but i'm severely out of cash for this wk. mayb i can ask my mom for some. i'm thinking of going with her to work tml - get more things done. otherwise i'm really jus lazing around at home.
i hope to be able to catch joann some time soon :) haven't meet up with her in the longest time and my hols time table is maddening. it's either so pack i can do anything; or so not pack that i have to use those time to work for the times i've lost. terrible and horrendous!!
-; little lotte } @ 5:33 PM
the superficial world.
jus got home from bugis. got some sweets but i'm severely out of cash for this wk. mayb i can ask my mom for some. i'm thinking of going with her to work tml - get more things done. otherwise i'm really jus lazing around at home.
i hope to be able to catch joann some time soon :) haven't meet up with her in the longest time and my hols time table is maddening. it's either so pack i can do anything; or so not pack that i have to use those time to work for the times i've lost. terrible and horrendous!!
-; little lotte } @ 5:33 PM
the superficial world.
jus got home from bugis. got some sweets but i'm severely out of cash for this wk. mayb i can ask my mom for some. i'm thinking of going with her to work tml - get more things done. otherwise i'm really jus lazing around at home.
i hope to be able to catch joann some time soon :) haven't meet up with her in the longest time and my hols time table is maddening. it's either so pack i can do anything; or so not pack that i have to use those time to work for the times i've lost. terrible and horrendous!!
-; little lotte } @ 5:33 PM
the superficial world.
Saturday, June 5, 2004
Saturday - the end of the first wk of june hols. havent done much actually except attempting to complete all my tutorials. from next wk, it's pure hard work. in a sense it'll be gd cos i dun hav to go to sch and i can concentrate on my studies with no interruption. think of this - another 4 months of pure hell and i will need to face the biggest demons around. and after that - what? a new life, a new beginning.
i fear it. it's not going to be easy bcos after this yr, i'll be moving out of the sheltered life i hav in yrs n i'll be doing new things. i'll be working - at least for a little while - before returning to sch life. even so, the sch life will be different. and i'm scared of what's to come. each turn of my life is one that is exciting, one that i look forward to. each phrase, too, has its own insecurities and its own set of rules. and i cant avoid them. frm kid to sch, there had been a shift. then, pri to sec sch, another new set of rules, another new beginning. then my r/ship n breakup; from sec sch to jc; and now... now, i'm facing a new route, the prospect of a new future... boy, i'm glad i've got ppl i care for in this life and who care for me in return - my parents; in a way, my bros; my family members, little they may be; my friends - bel, belle, farhanah, van n gang, lex, etc, mdm ang and the teachers... i'm so lucky... and i thank God for them... they are not many but they are sincere and this is the best part abt friendship that i love the most...
i spoke to bel that day abt kit... and she told me something that i'd failed to spot... or mayb i jus didn't wan to admit the fact. the truth is, kit is drifting - we're no longer that close and all of us felt it. i remembered her telling us during OC that she had this feeling that all of us wun be that close anymore after the OC... but i dun tink so... and i told her that... but it seemed she was right bcos she didn't wan to hang ard with us anymore... it's really disappointing and jus not right. i couldn't understand - is she only interested in fast aquaintances that will do when the time is ripe? i'm really disappointed in her...
i got my application form from MOE now... i'm considering whether to wait till prelims before sending the letter in. but we shall see...
pS: tonight is Harry Potter night! i couldn't believe that my parents actually agreed to watch with us. :)
***
You only see what your eyes want to see
How can life be what you want it to be
You're frozen
When your heart's not open
You're so consumed with how much you get
You waste your time with hate and regret
You're broken
When your heart's not open
Chorus:
Mmmmmm, if I could melt your heart
Mmmmmm, we'd never be apart
Mmmmmm, give yourself to me
Mmmmmm, you hold the key
Now there's no point in placing the blame
And you should know I suffer the same
If I lose you
My heart will be broken
Love is a bird, she needs to fly
Let all the hurt inside of you die
You're frozen
When your heart's not open... ~ FROZEN, MADONNA
-; little lotte } @ 10:32 AM
the superficial world.
Saturday - the end of the first wk of june hols. havent done much actually except attempting to complete all my tutorials. from next wk, it's pure hard work. in a sense it'll be gd cos i dun hav to go to sch and i can concentrate on my studies with no interruption. think of this - another 4 months of pure hell and i will need to face the biggest demons around. and after that - what? a new life, a new beginning.
i fear it. it's not going to be easy bcos after this yr, i'll be moving out of the sheltered life i hav in yrs n i'll be doing new things. i'll be working - at least for a little while - before returning to sch life. even so, the sch life will be different. and i'm scared of what's to come. each turn of my life is one that is exciting, one that i look forward to. each phrase, too, has its own insecurities and its own set of rules. and i cant avoid them. frm kid to sch, there had been a shift. then, pri to sec sch, another new set of rules, another new beginning. then my r/ship n breakup; from sec sch to jc; and now... now, i'm facing a new route, the prospect of a new future... boy, i'm glad i've got ppl i care for in this life and who care for me in return - my parents; in a way, my bros; my family members, little they may be; my friends - bel, belle, farhanah, van n gang, lex, etc, mdm ang and the teachers... i'm so lucky... and i thank God for them... they are not many but they are sincere and this is the best part abt friendship that i love the most...
i spoke to bel that day abt kit... and she told me something that i'd failed to spot... or mayb i jus didn't wan to admit the fact. the truth is, kit is drifting - we're no longer that close and all of us felt it. i remembered her telling us during OC that she had this feeling that all of us wun be that close anymore after the OC... but i dun tink so... and i told her that... but it seemed she was right bcos she didn't wan to hang ard with us anymore... it's really disappointing and jus not right. i couldn't understand - is she only interested in fast aquaintances that will do when the time is ripe? i'm really disappointed in her...
i got my application form from MOE now... i'm considering whether to wait till prelims before sending the letter in. but we shall see...
pS: tonight is Harry Potter night! i couldn't believe that my parents actually agreed to watch with us. :)
***
You only see what your eyes want to see
How can life be what you want it to be
You're frozen
When your heart's not open
You're so consumed with how much you get
You waste your time with hate and regret
You're broken
When your heart's not open
Chorus:
Mmmmmm, if I could melt your heart
Mmmmmm, we'd never be apart
Mmmmmm, give yourself to me
Mmmmmm, you hold the key
Now there's no point in placing the blame
And you should know I suffer the same
If I lose you
My heart will be broken
Love is a bird, she needs to fly
Let all the hurt inside of you die
You're frozen
When your heart's not open... ~ FROZEN, MADONNA
-; little lotte } @ 10:32 AM
the superficial world.
Saturday - the end of the first wk of june hols. havent done much actually except attempting to complete all my tutorials. from next wk, it's pure hard work. in a sense it'll be gd cos i dun hav to go to sch and i can concentrate on my studies with no interruption. think of this - another 4 months of pure hell and i will need to face the biggest demons around. and after that - what? a new life, a new beginning.
i fear it. it's not going to be easy bcos after this yr, i'll be moving out of the sheltered life i hav in yrs n i'll be doing new things. i'll be working - at least for a little while - before returning to sch life. even so, the sch life will be different. and i'm scared of what's to come. each turn of my life is one that is exciting, one that i look forward to. each phrase, too, has its own insecurities and its own set of rules. and i cant avoid them. frm kid to sch, there had been a shift. then, pri to sec sch, another new set of rules, another new beginning. then my r/ship n breakup; from sec sch to jc; and now... now, i'm facing a new route, the prospect of a new future... boy, i'm glad i've got ppl i care for in this life and who care for me in return - my parents; in a way, my bros; my family members, little they may be; my friends - bel, belle, farhanah, van n gang, lex, etc, mdm ang and the teachers... i'm so lucky... and i thank God for them... they are not many but they are sincere and this is the best part abt friendship that i love the most...
i spoke to bel that day abt kit... and she told me something that i'd failed to spot... or mayb i jus didn't wan to admit the fact. the truth is, kit is drifting - we're no longer that close and all of us felt it. i remembered her telling us during OC that she had this feeling that all of us wun be that close anymore after the OC... but i dun tink so... and i told her that... but it seemed she was right bcos she didn't wan to hang ard with us anymore... it's really disappointing and jus not right. i couldn't understand - is she only interested in fast aquaintances that will do when the time is ripe? i'm really disappointed in her...
i got my application form from MOE now... i'm considering whether to wait till prelims before sending the letter in. but we shall see...
pS: tonight is Harry Potter night! i couldn't believe that my parents actually agreed to watch with us. :)
***
You only see what your eyes want to see
How can life be what you want it to be
You're frozen
When your heart's not open
You're so consumed with how much you get
You waste your time with hate and regret
You're broken
When your heart's not open
Chorus:
Mmmmmm, if I could melt your heart
Mmmmmm, we'd never be apart
Mmmmmm, give yourself to me
Mmmmmm, you hold the key
Now there's no point in placing the blame
And you should know I suffer the same
If I lose you
My heart will be broken
Love is a bird, she needs to fly
Let all the hurt inside of you die
You're frozen
When your heart's not open... ~ FROZEN, MADONNA
-; little lotte } @ 10:32 AM
the superficial world.
Tuesday, June 1, 2004
parents - out... went for some religion thing... house is damn quiet which is a plus, which means my two bros are quiet :)
i finally caught up with bel but she didn't wan to go watch harry potter with me... guess i'm too slow catching her... sigh... she's ok - which is gd but still i cant rid this nagging feeling in my heart. nvm... mayb things will work out soon...
-; little lotte } @ 8:56 PM
the superficial world.
parents - out... went for some religion thing... house is damn quiet which is a plus, which means my two bros are quiet :)
i finally caught up with bel but she didn't wan to go watch harry potter with me... guess i'm too slow catching her... sigh... she's ok - which is gd but still i cant rid this nagging feeling in my heart. nvm... mayb things will work out soon...
-; little lotte } @ 8:56 PM
the superficial world.
parents - out... went for some religion thing... house is damn quiet which is a plus, which means my two bros are quiet :)
i finally caught up with bel but she didn't wan to go watch harry potter with me... guess i'm too slow catching her... sigh... she's ok - which is gd but still i cant rid this nagging feeling in my heart. nvm... mayb things will work out soon...
-; little lotte } @ 8:56 PM
the superficial world.
